| Life is a rollercoaster ride; Full of daily ups and downs. But all I wanted was the highs; Never wanted to touch the ground. Life, I thought, was a carnival of fun; So I hit the ground and began to run. Faster and faster toward an unknown goal; Looking for answers, but I fell in a hole. Darker and darker my horizons became; Irritable, discontent, and always full of shame. A man in the sideshow approached me one day; A magic potion in hand; he said he could show me the way. Do you want to soar higher and higher, never to fall? Buy my potion to feel no pain, COME ONE, COME ALL! How much I wondered, could this potion cost? To never again feel lonely, never again feel lost. "How much?" I asked, I had to know; So the good feelings would always flow. He handed me the bottle and said with a smile; "The cost we will discuss in just a little while." "Try it, go ahead, you'll never be the same." You'll feel its power, you'll be the winner of every game." I gazed upon the potion, filled with such desire; To never again to feel bad, to never again tire. What a priceless liquid; I drank it down; Not one more day would I have to frown. But what I didn't know, what I couldn't see; He'd sold me a lie; nothing is free. Higher and higher I flew, this much was true; But the cost was everything in my life that I'd ever knew. When the ride was over, and the fun was gone; I couldn't face the truth, the wrongs I had done. So back to the sideshow I would return; Looking for more so I wouldn't crash & burn. There he stood, a grin on his face; "Not tired yet, still running the race?" I had to have more, an aching hunger I must feed; "Don't worry" he said, "I have ALL you need." But this time, a price you must pay; Whatever it was I would find a way. "The price for this bottle is your heart and your soul; You must give it all away to reach your goal" Without a thought, not a moment of hesitation; I agreed to it all, I had to find salvation. With potion in hand, I began to leave; When suddenly I felt a tug on my sleeve. I turned to see an usual sight; A woman standing in an aura of light. "My child I want to help you, you are in so much pain; The bottle you hold is only filled with more of the same." "WHO IS SHE" I yelled, to think she had a clue! "I was once on the same journey, I was once like you." "The ride you are on will never stop You won't find peace, you'll never reach the top" "If you want what we have, I'll show you the path; the steps comparitively few;" Compared to the wasted steps you have taken your whole life through What she spoke of I couldn't grasp, but I was willing if it would stop the pain; Because peace in my soul is what I desired, what I needed the most to gain. For not one more day did I feel I could go on The potion in the bottle, the race IT had won You will only run in circles the rest of your life In vain will be all your pain and your strife For salvation can't be found here on earth To Him you must turn to find rebirth "I'll tell you my journey, I'll gladly do this for free For long age, this great gift, was freely given to me The only thing I ask in return Pass it on freely, so one more won't crash and burn" So I asked for help, I needed to know How to stop the running, I had nowhere left to go "The only way to win , she said; You must surrender, then bow your head. "You will see the answer is so simple, not complicated at all; You will then find peace, you'll no longer to fall. Reach to HIM for salvation, he won' turn you away; He's been there all along, only waiting to hear you say... I need help, dear God, I can't do this alone; Can you show me how to find my way home? Can I really be forgiven for all I have done? For the pain I have caused while only looking for fun? "These things you look for are within your reach; You must only listen to the lesson that I am here to teach. To gain the answers to all you need; You only have to ask Him to plant the seed. For faith in Him will grow in the sod; All you must to do is Let go and Let God. The path is yours, the way I have shown; But the rest of the way, must I go it alone? "The choice is yours alone, she said, that much is true; But alone you'll never be, for He is ALWAYS with you |
You could always find me in a poker tourney;
Before I started ‘It’s all in the JOURNEY.
So I’m using poker here as a metaphor;
Cause I still love the game, just not as before.
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Easy does it; keep it simple:
I’d agree and show a dimple.
“Just don’t pick up” this I get;
While I think of one more hit.
I‘ve learned my lesson - no more pain;
While glancing at the old fast lane.
I thought time was slipping, like glassed in sand;
So I enter the casino for one last hand.
It’s just for fun, I mouthed my lips;
As the dealer gave me a stack of chips.
Spotting – JUST ONE MORE - I sit at the table;
Because addict & alky is still my label.
Your lot in life is God playing poker;
We’re all dealt a hand; some get a joker.
I looked at my chips, then at the others;
Staring at husbands & wives, brothers and mothers.
A pusher is dealing; don’t they mean the same?
Crack, smack or liquor; he’ll deal any game.
With the pot full of temptation, I go all in with a bluff;
Thinking, ‘This is just too easy, and I am just too tough.’
Then somebody calls, as my head rises in fear;
I look up at myself, when I only drank beer.
Another one calls, it’s me taking that first toke;
Then another pushes all in; it’s when I first started coke.
Someone sits down and says, “Hey boys, I’m back!”
It’s me once again, when I first started crack.
One more bets, I see it’s me starting meth;
And I notice everyone here has a resemblance to death.
All the faces of family, that I thought I had seen;
Were really just me, before I became a dope fiend.
The pusher deals the flop, and turns up the first 3;
There’s nothing there close to what he’s dealt me.
Meth me’s lighter ain’t working, so he throws a fit;
While coke me is laughing, and takes one more hit.
Next comes the turn, card number four;
Still nothing for me, as I eye the door.
Me with a beer is leering, as me toking looks sound asleep;
Sitting so close to my old me’s - I see - what you sow, you shall reap.
Finally the last card is turned up, this one is what’s called the river;
I’ve lost my bet with temptation, and inside my soul starts to quiver.
Now all my old me’s are smiling, and staring directly at me;
I stand up and shout.” Stay away! I’m not who I used to be!”
The me’s of my past are laughing, “Come on, it’s going to be fun.”
“You played with temptation and lost; it’s time to start a new run.”
I look for a way to escape me, my eyes again towards the door;
But you can’t run away from yourself; I know – I’ve tried it before.
So I’d have to deal with my me’s - and me not wanting to leave;
When suddenly I remember – I’ve got an ace up my sleeve!.
With temptation piled high on the table, my recovery had started to cower;
But then I stopped being afraid - when I remembered my Higher Power!
Now here’s a little secret, when temptation pops out of the blue;
And no matter what comes out of your mouth, inside you know that it’s true -
Either you believe in a Higher Power, or it means that you’re here all alone;
You can always call your friends, whenever they answer the phone.
But when your present meets the past; when you run into the gang;
And temptation starts to tickle, but before it hits with a BANG!
To stop the itch a scratch won’t touch & save the future grief;
I’m here to tell you a secret; you have to have a belief.
That there is something Higher, a Power greater than you;
God, the steps & the fellowship; this is now your crew!
And with that knowledge I told me bye, I’d really had enough;
I’d never try to bluff again; I wasn’t tough enough!
peace