I’ve struggled for years to find my voice and have the courage to share my words… often this leads me to miserable bouts of insomnia. I wrote this in the middle of the night… once again, I couldn't sleep.

I think these thoughts inside my head… up all night, they don’t let me sleep, up all night, they want to speak. Stuck inside, thoughts thinkin, barely breathin’, all crammed inside. Thinkin’, thinkin’, thinkin’, STOP! Please leave these thoughts and let me be… LET ME BE!

CAN’T! Got somethin’ to say, gotta find my voice and set them free. Somebody put these thoughts inside my head, blessed me with this curse that keeps me up at night. My invisable thoughts, can’t nobody see, ‘cuz I never explored that side of me. Never the courage to give my thoughts words to speak… can’t get ‘em out. SILENCED, can’t cough up the words. SCARED, what might you think of me? My words, my mind, thoughts inside of me, anxiously waiting their debut. Someday their voice will come, crackly at first, then well-versed. They’ll breathe fresh air, claim their space… I can only hope they’ll find their place.

No more invisable thoughts... I need to find my words.